Author Archives: Stuart Walter

I guess it’s been a while since I wrote anything. Yesterday was rough, and so was today. But I’m still here, right? That’s gotta count for something.

So here I am over six hours after I started this damn thing on what seems like post number 123,645. I’ve been trying to do some video break-down of a high school hockey game (that I should have had done weeks ago) since about 3:00pm but still haven’t even gotten through the first period of.Continue reading “Feb 2, 2020 @ 8:41pm”

I know there’s still going to be a LOT of ups and downs but right now I feel pretty good. My son is still kinda sick but he’s acting more like himself. I’m about to go put a pizza in the oven, open a bag of chips and crack a red bull with the superContinue reading “Feb 2, 2020 @ 5:49pm”

I slightly feel like a weight is off my shoulders. It’s nice to kind of get everything off my chest and not in my mind anymore. I was talking to a friend who reminded me that it’s kinda like keeping a journal (which it exactly is) and that isn’t a bad thing. There’s a reasonContinue reading “Feb 2, 2020 @ 5:21pm”

I know there’s been a lot of negativity so far in my writing, but I promise that’s not everything that’s going through my mind. I love my life. I have a wife who loves me and a son who lights up my life. I may not have my dad (he passed away 15 years agoContinue reading “Feb 2, 2020 @ 5:09pm”

Wow. I never thought I’d be writing one of these every few minutes but here I am. I don’t even know why, but I just want to get all of my thoughts out of my mind and…somewhere so they’re not there anymore. I just don’t know what to do. I’ve tried so hard for soContinue reading “Feb 2, 2020 @ 4:03pm”

I just want to stop doing anything involved with hockey right now. Fuck. Why can’t this get better even just for one minute? That means if I give up hockey I have to give up ever working in sports because I don’t know shit about any other sports really. Soccer I couldn’t hold a candleContinue reading “Feb 2, 2020 @ 3:50pm”

I still feel like crap in case you were wondering. I really hope that if you’re reading this you know full well that this is my trying to just get my anxiety and depression and bad thoughts out of my mind so they’re not there anymore. I’m not attacking anyone or any group of people.Continue reading “Feb 2, 2020 @ 3:46pm”

A wave of depression just hit me, and with it came anxiety. I’ve started up my Belfast Giants blog recently and thought I was doing a great job and gaining traction but now I’m not so sure. Yeah, there’s a portion of the fan base on Twitter that read it, but other than that I’mContinue reading “Feb 2, 2020 @ 3:31pm”